Tuesday, November 29, 2005
2:58 PM
its pouring and im bored to death..chatting to melon online and listerning to my currently stucked on song,far away by nickelback..haha thanks to eeqah that im hoocked onto this song and thanks to sam for getting it for me:)
anyway!body is aching quite a bit..training tml and after that would be town with melon to go look for ms lydia who's in s'pore already i think?oh well..yesyes ive been rottin my ass off infront of the tv till the protectors ended then i had to keep the clothes cause it decided to pour so yes..now im here to update a totally senseless entry cause im bored so its all gona end up as crap..like im talking to myself which is what ive been doing..must be yoke may who passed me this illness back at obm..haha!okay see what i mean?im being stupid here..hurrr i am so bored!!i feel like eating meatballs from ikea..yummy!hahaha that was really retarded..
i feel like going for another haircut..but its too soon and im broke anyway!my gosh..i rather be going to school then stay home and rot..at least i get to see everybody and at least i'll have something to do..ive handed up my completed juke ss homework..not because i didnt know how to do..but i forgot to finish it so i had to rush it..argh im angry with myself though it was like months back..haha!hmm well the marks are counted..Ns next year..how soon..soon i'll be leaving stc..that would be the moment ive been waiting for man..for all the right and wrong reasons i just cant wait to get outta there..okok its not that bad..i had my best memories there..but..oh well..no one will get it..yes yes..
bye now..cheers!
Monday, November 28, 2005
11:25 AM
training in a few hours time..its that long bus ride season again..hahaha!when i talk about seaons i think of clara..haha its an inside thing..oh well..have been sniffing and im hoping it'll go away before i train or its gona be hell for me..yes yes anyway watched harry potter yesterday night with nathan,mom and dad..it was good but i already cant wait for the next one!haha stupid..hmm im thinking right now if i should order Macs or just have fried rice for lunch..im having the talking to myself shit again..haha okay long bus ride now please?the 10hr one to and back from obm was great..give me another one:)
cheers!
Sunday, November 27, 2005
12:20 AM
came home at around 11plus i think?not sure..haha cant recall..haha anyway im really tired and ziping your so funny la..take care..gwennie you too..take care..mel you too..all of you la..okay sorry this is crappy entry..will talk more tml..loves..nights..okay bye
Friday, November 25, 2005
11:35 PM
today was one hell of a day..woke up at 7 when i was suppose to be up at 6..anyway i quickly jumped out of bed slowly so i wont fall like a pig to the floor board..haha anyway as usual i was late but its nothing unusual cause im always late..haha yes yes my black shoes bit me today..ive got two blisters..anyway grad day was okay la..haha not too bad but i was angry for some of them cause the school was being fucked up and stupid..argh..oh well shall not get angry over silly shits..haha yes yes
anyway the food was good..haha anyway went to ikea for my haircut which didnt have much difference which is good..haha sam was being a kind soul and she followed me:)thanks la okay..haha!anyway yes yes i had hot dog and sam left while i join the chen's and got a ride to NIE..haha training wasnt tough but it was tiring la..my body was sleepy and so was i..haha okok crappy again..anyway out with bestie tml and we have a full day plan tml!haha coolness!i cant wait..anyway we'll head to gwens after that and she'll be stayin over at my place..haha fun all night..okay la..im sleepy so im not gona say much..
currently stucked on far away by nickelback which is fucking good i swear..the lyrics tells it all..haha yes yes cheers!
Thursday, November 24, 2005
12:03 AM
today was okay la..woke up at 11plus cause ms loke called me and woke me up over some qns..haha anyway i ans them without thinking and i was trying not to sound sleepy..haha anyway i went back to sleep..yes yes then later..sam called and she woke me up..but she and sher was nice..they were near by returning stuff so they got me macs and left after awhile..haha yes yes and sher is jealous of my tan!!i just know it..haha no matter how much she deny..haha!shes gona kill me for this..haha!
anyway i met zenn,ravinder and steff at holland at 530 and i was late so couldnt get a hair cut..anyway met them and we waited for gwen but they left to pick the cake up so fang and i waited for gwen and chess..haha missed them!!haha yes then we all headed to roma for dinner and it was good!haha but the bill went up to 143.20..haha but we all paid our share so it was alright..haha it was great seeing them la..cause i really missed them..yes yes anyway they headed for town but i headed home cause i wasnt feeling too good..was being a spoiler..sorry gwen..anyway got home and i came online..everyone's like asleep now..im boredd!borrowing vcds to watch tml..gona be a busy day on the sofa..haha
okay im alil sleepy but im still talking to clara chai!haha missed talking to her la..anyway im starting to talk rubbish now cause im sleepy..so chao!cheers!:D
far away.
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
One my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
[CHORUS]
So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
1:48 PM
im am back home at last!haha home sweet home..but i still cried when we had to leave OBM..haha yes kill me please!i didnt wana cry but everyone around was crying so i couldnt take it..haha
anyway,overall this whole course was great!i had fun with all the different advantures and i met great people..haha yep yep..was too tired to update when i got home yesterday..got home at around 9plus i think?or was it 10?im not sure..but i was still lazy and tired..nathan also known as robin,got me lunch..haha how sweet of him..haha oh and i talked to my dear clara at last!haha missed her stupidness during camp!haha yes yes i missed many during this camp..but now that im home..im gona miss the people over there in malaysia..like shit loads too..haha okay im too lazy to talk about the camp here cause that would just be way too much..haha so anything just ask me..haha okay coolness im so high..
haha going for dinner with them tonight i cant wait!!i miss everybody..haha i wana drink drink drink and i like my tan..haha okay gona go get a hair cut first at holland then meet zenn and the rest there later..haha okay will be back here tonight..cheers!
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
11:20 PM
this place would soon become my hell
sometimes i wonder..what do people really think i am..someone who's really happy with no worries..sly..or someone who has more then just meets the eye?okay i know im being fucking random now..but seriously..looking into my side,darkness is all that you can see..maybe just alil glow thanks to those few special ones..but other than that..im running on a one way track which leds to i dont know where and its a black track with no white lines to do the markings..there's nothing on it..nothing at all..argh..things have changed..so much..just that one month..yeah shit happens..why not tell me about it..fuck it i swear..everytime i think about it tears would fill my damn eyes..fuck it!i really really hate this..i wana turn things back..thanks to melon and sam and others who have been talking to me..actually,its just the both of them..haha!hmm oh well..currently my joy is my baby coffee..seeing her makes me happy..i love her:)
oh to hell goes my dream..what dream?a broken dream.
I remember someone old once said to me:
"lies will lock you up with truth the only key."
But im comfortable and warm inside my shell,
Monday, November 07, 2005
11:13 PM
damn it..headache kills i swear!:(
dad and nathan are playing chess right beside me..haha the whole damn family was in the study till mum had to leave to hang the clothes..thank God both guys are done..they make shit loads of noise..oh well..yes yes.
track was alright i guess?he was nice and i respect him for that:)oh well..but i must say..i suck so bad i wanted to kill myself..you have no idea how far behide i was from everyone else..thanks rachel anne for being with me..if not for her..i wouldnt have done it..she made my day by making me laugh alot during training:Di love her for that!haha see rachel..for once,im saying something nice about you!haha oh well..training was okay but the sun was quite a killer but i liked it despite swearing at it..i did like the feeling of having to bear with the heat again and sweating like fuck..haha oh well..there would be more to come..next on the list would be obs!haha yes yes..haha hope i come back golden brown..haha coolness..okay gtg..cheers!:)
Sunday, November 06, 2005
11:56 PM
went to shop for my obs..still left out certain stuff..but not much..other then that..im ready to go i guess..just need the bag to put the stuff in..melon is passing it to me tml:)training tml..im not so looking forward to it just by thinking of the things that might happen..oh well..im boredd.bye
are you happy now.
Now
Don't just walk away
Pretending everything's okay
And you don't care about me
And I
Know it's just no use
When all your lies become your truths
And I
Don't care, Yeah yeah yeah
Chorus
Could you look me in the eye
And tell me that you're happy now (oooh)
Would you tell it to my face
And have a little grace
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?
To crawl there was to take
And left me with the empty plate
And you don't care about it
And I
Am giving up this guilt
And leaving you with all the blame
Cuz I don't care
Chorus
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?
Yeah, yeah
Do you really have everything you want?
You could never give something you regret
You could run away from yourself
Yeah
Could you look me in the eye
And tell me that you're happy now, yeah yeah
Come on, tell it to my face
And have a little grace
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?
Would you look me in the eye?
Could you look me in the eye?
I've had all that I can take
I'm not about to break cuz I'm happy now
Are you happy now?
4:36 PM
im suddenly feeling really scared to go back fro track tml.oh well..shit happens and lets hope i dont bring tears with me at the end of track.okay done for a short entry.
3:58 PM
okay i didnt have a goodnight last night..came home at 11?im not sure..the dinner was alright i guess..the people at the table made me laugh quite abit..anyway got home and didnt come online..shocking eh?its a sat night yet i slept before 1?yeah..but i hardly slept..kept tossing in bed..and when i finally gotto sleep..it started pouring and i got woken up so i had a hard time going back to sleep..anyway when i finally did..i started to have this stupid nightmare..it wasnt very scary but it felt fucking real i swear..and its a sign i guess..cause after waking up in a shock..something not so happy happen?oh well..nothing i should think about.
okay yes yes today im going out with mom to shop for stuff i need for obs..before that mom gotto go get her eyes checked..so boringgggggggg..nvm thank God i have my neeon..haha oh well..movie date with kathy soon:)) and movie date with twin next tues..track date on monday and thats one thing im looking forward to?hope it turns out alright..wait a min..its just tml..damn!i didnt think its that soon..oh well..lets all hope it'll be fine..okay thats all folks..cheers!
would you be happier.
Have you ever wondered where the story ends
And how it all began, I do
Did you ever dream you were the movie star
With popcorn in your hand, I did
Do you ever feel you're someone else inside
And no one understands, you are
And wanna disappear inside a dream
But never wanna wake, wake up
And then you stumble on tomorrow
And trip over today
Would you be happier, if you weren't so un-together
Would the sun shine brighter, if you played a bigger part
Would you be wonderful, if it wasn't for the weather
You're gonna be just fine
Are you not afraid to tell your story now
But everyone is gone, it's too late
Why's everything you've ever said or done
Not the way you planned
Mistake
And so you promised that tomorrow'd
Be different than today
Would you be happier, if you weren't so un-together
Would the sun shine brighter, if you played a bigger part
Would you be wonderful, if it wasn't for the weather
You're gonna be just fine
I think you're gonna be just fine...
You're gonna be just fine
So don't worry baby
You're racing for tomorrow
Not finished with today
Would you be happier, if you weren't so un-together
Would the sun shine brighter, if you played a bigger part
Would you be wonderful, if it wasn't for the weather
I think you're gonna be just fine
Would we be happier, if we weren't so un-together
Would the sun shine brighter, if we played a bigger part
Would we be wonderful, if it wasn't for the weather
I think we're gonna be just fine
I think you're gonna be just fine
(Don't worry baby)
You're gonna be just fine
(Don't worry honey)
You're gonna be just fine
(Don't worry baby)
You're gonna be just fine
Saturday, November 05, 2005
4:03 PM
mom woke me up early today..she woke me up at 11 to change the sheets..i was like a dead duck la..my blue black on my back is killing me..thanks to nathan la..oh well..granny's birthday dinner soon..haha yes yes thats all that have happen today..gona go to ikea as soon as my mother is done doing her shit..i cant wait to eat the meatballs..but come to think of it..im not not hungry but im tummy is empty..im so mood-less la..just finish my book too and the ending sucks la..there better be a second one or i'll freak..haha and that reminds me that i gotto get hold of mel to pass her book to marilyn so she cen bring it over..i cant wait..i miss marilyn but not alot la..hahaha!but it'll be nice having her around and sadly in my bedroom:(
okay enough said..will be back tonight..cheers!
just the way im feeling.
Love in, love out,
Find the feeling
Scream in, Scream out,
Time for healing
You feel the moment's gone too soon,
You're watching clouds come over you.
Torn in two,
You close your eyes for some place new,
Torn in two
And I feel it's going down,
Ten feet below the ground,
I'm waiting for your healing hand,
One touch could bring me round
I feel we're going down,
Ten feet below the ground,
It's just the way I'm feeling.
Glow in, burn out,
Lost the feeling
Bruise in, you bruise out,
Nurse the bleeding
Torn in two,
Each time we bruise
And I feel it's going down,
Ten feet below the ground,
I'm waiting for your healing hand,
One touch could bring me round
I feel we're going down,
Ten feet below the ground,
It's just the way I'm feeling.
Yeah yeah, it's just the way I'm feeling.
Two different views,
As words confuse and break
I can't get out,
There's no way out of here,
I can't get clear.
Love in, love out,
Find the feeling.
And I feel it's going down,
Ten feet below the ground,
I'm waiting for your healing hand,
One touch could bring me round
I feel we're going down,
Ten feet below the ground,
It's just the way I'm feeling.
Yeah yeah, it's just the way I'm feeling.
Yeah yeah, it's just the way I'm feeling.
Yeah yeah, it's just the way I'm feeling.
Yeah yeah, it's just the way I'm feeling.
Friday, November 04, 2005
11:49 PM
the simple things hit so hard
today was sleepy and boring..open house nearly killed me thank God i had benny to keep me err busy?haha we crapped alot la..haha both our duties were cancelled cause there was enough people to go around to bring the P6 girls around..haha yes yes so i went up to the track booth which was okay i guess?walked around alil and went to the kitchen and i saw the dance girls baking!haha it was funny la..haha anyway i left around 11plus?not too sure but yeah i left early cause i was way too bored to stay on..so i decided to be a kind soul and follow sam to OLN to pick charlene who i must once again say,she's so adorable..i want a cousin like that..haha i'll spoil the shit outta her..haha my cousins are all too boring..haha anyway as soon as we picked charlene..i left to meet shermain who missed the bus cause she walks too slow!!hahaha!okay but its my bad la..that poor girl had to carry my books for me that she's passing on to me which is quite heavy i must say..so i was nice..i waited at the bus stop for her..haha yes yes she came over to use the computer while i talk to clara who was being stupid as usual..haha left for the cd renting shop around 445 with sher so she can rent some stupid drama..haha she's so gona kill me if she sees this..haha anyway she keeps hitting me but the result made her hands hurt too:D she's funny la i swear..haha meh mehs and away!hahaha
okay after that she being the kind soul..she took train so i wont have to wait for nathan also known as robin..yeah i wouldnt have to wait for him alone..haha he ran to the station and we three left for jurong..sher left and i headed to town with him to meet mother dear..haha we went to taka and nearly died waiting for my mom..she took forever and i swear she's evil!!she keeps showing me her dead finger skin which she carelessly cut last sat..haha it fucking gross la!!she's just as bad as me when it comes to being sick la..haha yes yes anyway we walked alil but my legs were killing!!they ached like nobody's business la..haha anyway we went to lucky's foodcourt for dinner instead of taka cause taka had way too much people..haha yes had curry chicken noodles which was fucking filling la!haha went to CK tang later on and mom got her handbag finally..haha another one to add on the her collection..haha yes yes and nathan was being an ass today la..he kept making me laugh in the train so i kept hitting him..haha he's funny:)
bumped into my bitch ailin who started being stupid teasing me thinking that i was with nathan alone..haha loser la she..but i love her anyway:D granny's birthday dinner tml..i cant wait!gona take pictures..haha yes yes its daddy's side thoughh..hurrrrr..so i might take back on the fun part..okay i think ive typed alot today but i dont really care cause i think i have alot to say today..haha okay im being stupid la..ahhhhh i wasnt allowed to go for track today:( though many didnt go..i still wanted to go..it has been 2354235794507348957493567 years since i last went for training la..i feel so..so out already:((
oh well..shit happens..cheers folks!
the long goodbye.
I know they say if you love somebody
You should set them free (so they say)
But it sure is hard to do
Yeah, it sure is hard to do
And I know they say if they don't come back again
Then it's meant to be (so they say)
But those words ain't pulling me through
Cos I'm still in love with you
I spend each day here waiting for a miracle
But it's just you and me going through the mill
(climbin' up a hill)
[Chorus]
This is the long goodbye
Somebody tell me why
Two lovers in love can't make it
Just what kind of love keeps breaking a heart?
No matter how hard I try
You're gonna make me cry
Come on, baby, it's over, let's face it
All that's happening here is a long goodbye
Sometimes I ask my heart did we really
Give our love a chance (just one more chance)
and I know without a doubt
I turned it inside out
And if we walked away
would make more sense (only self defense)
But it tears me up inside
Just to think we still could try
How long must we keep riding on a carousel
Going round and round and never getting anywhere?
(on a wing and prayer)
[Chorus]
This is the long goodbye
Somebody tell me why
Two lovers in love can't make it
Just what kind of love keeps breaking a heart?
No matter how hard I try
You're gonna make me cry
Come on, baby, it's over, Let's face it
All that's happening here is the long goodbye
[Chorus x2]
The long goodbye
The long goodbye
This is the long goodbye
Someone please tell me why
Are you ever coming back again
Are you ever coming back again
Are you ever coming back again
Guess I'm never coming back again
12:51 AM
im so tired im gona leave the blogging for another time..open house tml..wish me luck
Thursday, November 03, 2005
12:35 AM
hahahahhaha!clara's making me laugh so hard im gona die laughing..haha
anyway today was okay..it was a sleepy day..went to pick the kid up..charlene..haha i swear she's the most adorable thing ive seen..haha and when you put sam and her together..its so cute..like mother and daughter..hahaha!okay anyway i went with sam to pick char up and we went for lunch and all..and they came over and i fell asleep..i was so damn tired la..haha they wrote on my post its and yeah..thats about it..hahah im talking rubbish here..its so boring..you have no idea how boring it has been ever since i got that damn 2weeks MC!!argh..and yes..some probably think im having fun not going for training but hello its not MY choice..argh..mom isnt allowing me back till next week..but i dont care..if im okay by friday im fucking turning up and i know that black shit is gona give me his damn attitude but oh look!whats new?HAHA fucker la..argh..this whole track shit has been pissing and messing my fucked up life..you have no fucking idea how much i wana get out of stc..arghhhhhhhh!
okay enough of all this sad shit..party tml cause its my lil cousin's birthday..yes thats all..cheers!
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
11:56 PM
mom and dad finally got me a zen neeon:)im no longer stuck with cds..haha im on happy kid with a really painful butt thanks to robin..okay speaking of which i just got a damn scolding from the fucker my mom who scolded me for talkin on the phone too much and always holding my hp and using the computer for hours..like hello..firstly,i only use the damn computer twice a week or so and sometimes,i dont even touch the fucking thing..and damn it man..holding my hp around isnt any crime..not like im using the fucking thing..and me talkin on the phone is just a bad habit..okay that one i got nothing to say la..i think something has gotton in my mums head..the drinking and all must have got into her head..wait till she knows something else..she was telling me that she's upset with me..like why?cause i wana cut my head like a mohog if thats how its spelled..like hello bitch its just a thought for 2 years later..i might change my mind you know..argh..she's such a piss off i swear..yes yes i know im being ungrateful for saying all this when she just got me something nice..but im still angry la..argh..
anyway besides that..today we went out and i had fun but im sleepy..so cheers:D
never be the same again.
Come on. Ooh, yeah.
Never be the same again.
I call you up whenever things go wrong.
You're always there. You are my shoulder to cry on.
I can't believe it took me quite so long.
To take the forbidden step.
Is this something that I might regret?
(Come on, come on)
Nothing ventured nothing gained.
(You are the one)
A lonely heart that can't be tamed.
(Come on, come on)
I'm hoping that you feel the same.
This is something that I can't forget.
I thought that we would just be friends.
Things will never be the same again.
It's just the beginning it's not the end.
Things will never be the same again.
It's not a secret anymore.
Now we've opened up the door.
Starting tonight and from now on.
We'll never, never be the same again.
Never be the same again.
Now I know that we were close before.
I'm glad I realised I need you so much more.
And I don't care what everyone will say.
It's about you and me.
And we'll never be the same again.
I thought that we would just be friends (oh yeah).
Things will never be the same again. (Never be the same again)
It's just the beginning it's not the end. (We've only just begun)
Things will never be the same again.
It's not a secret anymore.
Now we've opened up the door. (Opened up the door)
Starting tonight and from now on.
We'll never, never be the same again.
Never be the same again.
Nite and day.
Black beach sand to red clay.
The US to UK, NYC to LA.
From sidewalks to highways.
See it'll never be the same again.
What I'm sayin'
My mind frame never changed 'til you came rearranged.
But sometimes it seems completely forbidden.
To discover those feelings that we kept so well hidden.
Where there's no competition.
And you render my condition.
Though improbable it's not impossible.
For a love that could be unstoppable.
But wait.
A fine line's between fate and destiny.
Do you believe in the things that were just meant to be?
When you tell me the stories of your quest for me.
Picturesque is the picture you paint effortlessly.
And as our energies mix and begin to multiply.
Everyday situations, they start to simplify.
So things will never be the same between you and I.
We intertwined our life forces and now we're unified.
I thought that we would just be friends.
Things will never be the same again.
It's just the beginning it's not the end.
Things will never be the same again.
It's not a secret anymore.
Now we've opened up the door.
Starting tonight and from now on.
We'll never, never be the same again.
(Come on, come on)
Things will never be the same again.
(You are the one)
Never be the same again.
It's not a secret anymore.
We'll never be the same again.
It's not a secret anymore.
We'll never be the same again.
Never be the same again.
Never be the same again.
Never be the same again.
Never be the same again.
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